3am

I just wanted to write you a letter. I know it's too late to call.

I was going to sit outside your house, and sing, just like you did to me. I wanted you to hear the pain in my voice, and to know how my life has changed completely since we met. I'm no longer complete; you got away with a piece of me that I doubt I'll ever get back. But enough of what's now and what's lost.

I want to tell you something.

You're a beautiful person with a beautiful soul. You have so much to look forward to, and so much to give. You never should ever feel as though you are worthless, or that the things you have done make you a bad person. I will never ever let someone bring you down. Your love can change the world, and it will someday. You love with all your heart, and you will someday. Just not now, and that's okay. We don't get to where we are going by sitting around working a mind-numbing entry-level position. We get educated, and follow our passions. We stumble along the way, with issues that we all resolve with the strength we find in ourselves. Someday you'll find that strength to let go just enough to realize how much damage you did.

I loved you with everything I had, and I know you were scared. I know you wanted to run away, and you did. I'm only sorry I never followed you. Together we could have built something beautiful. But, as we all do, I was caught up in the pain of being imperfect, of being human. I still am. I'm caught up in the incompleteness of my daily life, the dissatisfaction of having no money and almost a university degree. Nobody knows what's next. That's supposed to be one of the fun parts of life.

Now, I need to let go. I want to let you go. You need to move on, just like I am trying to. Realize that completeness. Feel the rain after a long humid day. Let it sear your skin, and breathe it in. Know that what's good in life is not what's good in death. Love doesn't heal everything, you need to solve your own problems. It's about time you started solving them. Take this as a push in the right direction, take this as the confidence to realize we all deserve more than we give ourselves. Take this, and remember our moment.

With love, always.