Look after you

Wow, it's been a really long work week. In fact, shhhh I'm still at work. We're just testing a new project and I've had very little luck--if you can call it that.

It's been a long week for three reasons:

1. I drink too much which makes work the time in between drunk

2. You're on my mind 9/10ths of the time which makes work hard

3. I don't get paid nearly enough for the hell I endure.

The thought of you wanting to quit makes me hurt. I don't know, I've never felt this kind of pain in a long time, not since I was around 16 and I didn't want someone else to leave. It's hard to believe I'm this attached, it's even harder to believe there's any chance between us.

You may have alluded to it before once or twice, and definitely when you literally told me when we were all drunk/high but does it even mean the same thing? Does it even mean what I want it to mean?

Your anger scares some of the other girls at work. It only makes me worry and fear what I wouldn't know how to deal with. You remind me so much of someone in a lot of ways, and it's so problematic, it was so hard to deal with them and it's not going to be any easier now.

I'd like to think I'd be the one to save you, but in the end, it's always you to be saving me.