Day 20

Soreness, swollen eyes shine in the light
It's dark outside, but I'm up tonight
I wonder if you realize how badly you broke me
Still, I seem to find the pieces
put me back together, to function again
But it's only ever for a little while, then
One look from you, I come undone

Cool breezes dance around my room, the sweetness
and stillness of the midnight air
the warmth lingers, and violin simmers away
It's never fair
When I love and lose, when I give it my all
and get tossed to the ground, you never meant
for this to happen, you never meant to hurt me
Why you started this hell, I'll never understand
But I know, there's some place in your heart
where I crawled into, fell asleep in your arms
I'll never understand why it had to be you

My hair, soft but brittle
falls around my face like a warm blanket
It changes like the seasons, my eyes
torn, with pain and regret
I have to break before I get better
My skin itches, my nerves are so wrought with
confusion, I'll never understand
When the only moment I don't think of you
is when I'm with you