Tonight, the stars are out. Literally, the sky is finally open enough to see the beautiful night. It's not something I get to see down here very often. When I go home, I can see the northern lights. I turn up my music, trying to drown out that voice in my head that is so troubled and conflicted.
I try writing, try to spill out of me the tears and troubles I keep running over and over in my head. But nothing is working, tonight.
I try to listen to songs that once got me out of the saddest times, but nothing seems to dull the pain. All i hear is this wail, this whine, that won't make anything right. Why can't I just be happy? Move on? I really just want to let this go, and turn the page. But I laugh, and love what I lost.
I haven't had a real migraine in a while, but one is coming. I feel my eyes twinge and crinkle at the sides. The light is no longer a friend, the sound keeps pounding at my head. I fear the bugs that keep climbing in around my air conditioner. Why do the little things irk me so much when I am tired?
I don't even know what is bothering me anymore, or why it's bothering me so much. It's a weird feeling to hate a situation but not be able to know what exactly that situation is.
I think I'll feel better if we hung out soon. Either that or you tell me you love me. Hahahahah
Your choice.
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